Chronic pain and rain

Sorry that I haven’t posted in a while, I’ve been attending the chronic pain clinic at the General Hospital. It’s an all day every day thing, so I’m exhausted and sore. But hopeful.
We do gentle exercises designed to increase mobility, talk to a shrink for help with the anxiety surrounding long term pain and re-injury, and we have occupational therapy, social something-or-other…
The only downside is that it’s 830-230 five days a week. One day usually crashes me for two days. My weekends will be filled with self care. And herbalism. My sunday classes continue! And I am doing two weeks, a 3 week break, then another 2 weeks. So it shouldn’t kill me.
I need more exercise hear though. (my day of the dead leggings got me some odd glares)

Lunch is difficult, too. The cafeteria is about 10*10 feet, with sandwiches, pop, tea&coffee, and soup. Gluten free is scarce. So is healthy drinks.
Add on that it’s been raining since … forever! We have double the rain from last year. From all summer last year and it’s mid July, another 6 weeks to go.

However, the concept is that they will teach me to avoid crashing and burning by pacing myself, learn to not “push through the pain” but to do things in a way that minimizes pain, and more.
I’ll update on results. So far I’ve done the “decision” week, full of tests and interviews to see if both myself and the many doctors involved think it’ll help me.
Now seems to be a good time to test the theory, it’s Noah’s ark weather. When did we get a monsoon season? My hips and back are certainly hurting enough to notice if pain goes down. Or up.

The hardest part for me, of course, is that I’m too sore and tired by the end of the day to write.

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Excitement abounds!

First off, Today is my birthday!
I got THE BEST quilting/ sewing/ embroidery machine ever!  It not only has the embroidery hoop and about a hundred pre-programmed stitches, you can add stitches from jpgs!  My old sewing machine, a lovely, easy to use, basic model will be going to a friend. She needs a well behaved machine.

I also got tickets to see Melissa Etheridge tomorrow night! One of my absolute favourite musicians, and we have VIP tickets! Table service, food, booze… a night to remember.

So far today, FB has sent me 95 birthday wishes! I always hope for 100, a nice round number.  🙂

And next week (July 11th) is Amazon Prime day!! As you know (or maybe not) I have an associate store which is not yet phased out, I think.  Let me check that, BRB…
Yup, it’s there!
So I will link to items related to my posts, like books, instant pot, nifty kitchen gadgets… hopefully they will all be on sale for prime day! And if you take a 30 day free Prime trial, I get a small referral fee and you get in on awesome prices. I got the $120 instant pot for $65 a couple years ago.

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Life happens

Sometimes it happens a lot. Explodes kinda.

I recently found out I’m becoming a godmother! I’ll try to be the nice one, not the one who curses the whole castle.  No promises.  🙂

We’ve been to 2 out of 3 baby showers, being the first grandchild in both the mom and pop-to-be’s families, everybody wanted to celebrate. I made a quilt! (my computer is being a poopy-head so I can’t upload a photo of it.)

I’m also taking a local herbalism course so that if someone is unwise enough to follow the suggestions of my totally invented healer in my totally made up world, they don’t poison themselves.  Plus it’s fascinating!

And I finally got into the pain clinic at Ottawa General. This means four weeks of 830-2pm sessions. I’m usually wrecked for 3 days after being in town for 1 day. This will be interesting. The doctor in charge says that she wants to see me on a bad day. Oh you will, honey, you will. By say… Wednesday of the first week.

Plus I’m trying to write 2000 words a day over 3 stories I’m currently working on. Harder than it should be. Like pulling teeth some days. Hen’s teeth.

I’m trying to finish 2 books that I’ve promised to review/ beta read. And many other things which I am too busy to think about.

But it’s summer!  Nothing else really matters.

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Another repost: or you could just go to Goodreads

December 14, 2015

My friend Jamieson has a Christmas novella for free! It’s a Yule gift to his fans, new and old.

Jamieson Wolf
The Magic of Stars cover

Happy Holidays!

This is my favourite time of year! People come together, spread kindness through the world and there’s something about it that’s just a little bit magical.

Speaking of magic, I have a gift for all of you. It’s my annual Holiday novella and you can download it for free. A small gift from me to you.

This year’s novella is called The Magic of Stars. Here’s a bit about the novella:

Oscar doesn’t believe in magic.

Though he lives in Inglewood Hamlet where magic is an everyday occurrence and his grandmother is the village miracle woman. Oscar still doesn’t believe in magic. Scientific facts are things that are proven, whereas magic has no quantifiable proof.

His whole world changes when one night, at his grandmothers urging, he wishes upon a falling star. “I wish I believed in magic…”

The next day, he meets a girl in the village…
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Repost: because it got lost in the shuffle: As Promised… Jamieson Wolf

And just in time, as my space bar has decided to only work part time. Now I need to smash it to get it to work, and have broken a nail.

The trials of being a writer, I tell you!

Without further ado, or spaces….
Giving Me the World
I used to be terrified to date. I was worried that men would judge me unworthy of their attention when I should have judged them unworthy of mine. My self-worth was so low that I equated sex with love.

Dating was made more difficult when I was stricken with Multiple Sclerosis on New Years Eve 2012. Now men not only judged my looks, they were afraid of me or they belittled me. When I was still walking with my cane, I had one man wave his hand at it saying “What’s that?”

I looked at my cane and then at him and said “It’s my cane.”

He rolled his eyes and said “Yes, but what are you doing with it?”

I remember my mouth opening up wide in wonder. When I closed it I replied: “I need it to walk.”

He scoffed. “Well, it must be nice being half a man.”

Needless to say, the date didn’t go well.

I had another man call me broken, still another who asked me why I persisted in pretending I had some disease when I could be whole and healthy if I chose to. I had one ask me how I could be so happy when I was so sick.

“Because I choose to be.” I told him.

After a string of horrible dates, I had given up on men. My dating life hadn’t been too great to start with, now it was the shits. However, just when I had given up, I met Michael.

He was an entirely different kind of man. He didn’t judge me, didn’t reprimand or make fun of me. Instead, he supported me and loved me completely.

It took a little while for me to trust him and not to run away. I wanted to run at first because he wasn’t treating me terribly. I know that sounds horrible, but anyone that has been in an abusive relationship will understand.

When Michael told me that he loved me the first time, it was as if a sun went off inside of me, filling all of me with a vibrant light. I remember standing there for a few seconds before saying “I love you too.” And the light increased.

Almost two years later, that love has grown and the light continues to grow, chasing away the shadows. We’ve travelled to different parts of the world, but more than that, Michael has helped me to travel to different parts of myself and helped me to engage with life again.

He really has given me the world and so I wrote this poem for him. Love you Michael.

You Have Given Me The World
From the moment

that we met,

my life has

been filled with

light. As our

love has continued

to grow, I’ve

changed. Now, instead

of hiding and

hoping for a

better life, I’m

living it. Instead

of wishing for

magic, I’m creating

it. Instead of

shying away from

all of life’s

pleasures, I’m embracing

them. Rather than

shy away from

anything, I’m meeting

things head on

unafraid of what

will happen. Instead

of waiting for

life to happen

to me, I’m making

my life happen.

Rather than try

to change me

into something that

you wanted me

to be, you

accepted me as

I was, as I

am, embracing all

of me and

all that I

could be. You

believe in me

even when my

belief in myself

flags or wavers.

You love even

the parts of

me that I

didn’t love and

now I see

myself in a

different light, through

a different lens.

You have changed

my life into

something so wonderful.

You have also

turned the world

from a mystery

waiting to be

solved into something

waiting to be

discovered. You’ve shown

me what true

love really is

and I’m a

better man because

of you. You’ve

given me the

world and I’m

eternally grateful for

your light. You

have given me

the world and

I can’t wait

to discover it

with you.”
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Here, there and everywhere

The next few weeks, or months, will be crazy busy around here.  That probably means my 2x a week blogging schedule will get even more screwed up than usual.

Thursday, I’m in town until 9pm for a writers group. Friday we leave for Ad Astra.  Get home Sunday late at night, and I should go to a different writers group Monday, but let’s be honest, even with the wheelchair all weekend, I’ll be in NO shape for a day in town.

The following weekend, we leave for 2 weeks for my Mom’s wedding.  It’s so cute! She’s 80 and he’s 70, and she thinks she’s a cougar, a cradle robber!

We get back just before the long weekend on the 21st of May, and have a birthday event to go to, then a few days off before the book fair (I’m on the organizing committee and in charge of registration). The next weekend is a charity event, the next is a wedding, then there’s a festival I’m in….

I’ll post when I have both time and brain function, but realistically…. expect to return to regular blogging in the fall.

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I could be famous!

Right now I’m reading Val McDermid’s article on her writing routine.

She gets up at 9am, starts working by 11. This is me! I get up around 830am, drag my bones out to get dressed, have a coffee, and am at the computer by 10. I then do email and blogs for a while, just like her. I also have music playing, though mostly SJ Tucker and Heather Dale for the fantasy feel. Maybe I should find some fantasy instrumentals?
Our routines are so much alike that I cannot help but become famous.  LOL  I wish.

Instead I fight my way through the pain to scrape together 1000-2000 words a day while watching others post 1000 words an hour. Of course, they’re on their 20th novel and can type. I’m not hunt and peck, but I have to be watching the keyboard.
I do research when the words won’t come and some days I’m more proud of 500 words on a bad day than I am of 2k on a good day. Some days the pain is a monster that won’t let me sleep, walk, stand or sit.
Those days, a bit of research into herbal medicines of the middle ages, or reading a how to plan better-write faster book is still work, and good for my “work-at-any-cost” protestant upbringing.
My dad worked 15 years for the Provincial government, and took not a single sick day. Not one.  Of course that was when Nyquil was the “get-some-rest-so-you-feel-better-and-can-get-back-to-work” medicine.  Now it’s “get-some-rest-so-you-feel-better-and-stay-home-and-not-give-everyone-the-plague” medicine.
It’s not the same thing with chronic pain, but the drive is the same. I feel terrible when I take a day off. I read somewhere that you should read a book on “how-to” and a couple of good novels in your genre every month.

So, I’m off to try to type my 500 words, then going in town for a baby shower gift for a dear friend, and to see my foster son in a musical.
Life is not only good, it’s amazing!

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Belated Mother’s Day and other mistakes I make

Happy Mother’s Day, mom… a little late.  In my defence, I did remember on the day, and the day after, I just couldn’t get through on the phone, or you were out.  Then my jerk brain said “Great, reminded you twice. My job here is done! And I forgot.
I really should have remembered, the 14th was also her wedding anniversary, I’m a bad daughter. But we are hoping to fly her up for a visit in the fall, when I’ll have time to just enjoy her company, so I’m not terrible. Much.

In the meantime; I have a contract coming from a traditional (sorta) publisher for a cookbook. I’ll explain more once I’m allowed to talk about it.  I just received word that another short story sold, and with only one round of edits!
I’ve been in a lot of pain with the rainy month we’ve had and have just been accepted to a month-long thing at the pain clinic. It is multi-faceted, including meditation, mindfulness, exercises, stretching, physio, coping strategies, etc. No painkillers or surgeries, so… yay!

I’m also busy with trying to purge my house. I’ve reached my tolerance limit on clutter and dust-collectors. So we’re sorting and giving away things. It’s hard, but necessary for my peace of mind.
I’ve recently seen articles that show a correlation between stress, insomnia and weight gain with clutter and mess. Since we’re both trying to lose weight, dearest Hubby and I are working on emptying the house. It’s also proving to us that a lot of our treasured things deserve more space on the shelves.
Instead of a pile of Blue Mountain pottery, I want to be able to display it. Same with my weird medieval-gothic-gypsy-vampire things, they’re so cool. People should be able to see them and be impressed. Or befuddled. I’ll accept either.

I’m also making a baby quilt for a dear friend who’s expecting her first child in July. My fingers remember how to quilt! It’s much easier than I remember, maybe when this one’s done I should pull out my rainbow in shadow quilt and finish it.

So, that’s it for today, must get back to things. And tea… much more tea!

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Hawaii and weddings

In four days my dear hubby and I head to Hawaii for a nephew’s wedding. It will be only the second time we’ve travelled as a couple (we met in 1998!) that wasn’t to a family member’s house or a writing conference.

The first was a cruise with my mom for her 70th birthday in 2005. I LOVE Puerto Rico.  We must go back for longer than the 12 hours the cruise ship gave us. The food was unbelievably good, We got the ship’s recommended guide to take us where he eats.  So yummy!

This time, Hubby’s whole fam-damily is headed to Maui for a sunset cruise, a luau with fire-dancing, all you can drink pina coladas (and I can drink a LOT of those) and a beach wedding.

I expect to post more often from Hawaii than I do normally because … reasons.

I’m finished the 1st draft that was due April 1st and sent it off already.
Most everything in Maui is on sand and I can only walk so far on that without severe pain. So, quiet evenings by a campfire (if allowed) with my laptop will be prime blogging time.
Photos! There will be so many photos!
And we have to check in to make sure the babysitter remembers to shoot my cat.

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Amazon store are up! Also, a newsletter, maybe.

My own Amazon store, selling MY books, things I blog about, interesting stuff, you name it. Seriously, tell me what you want me to carry, I’ll put it in the store and send you a link.

I’ve also set up a newsletter app that I have to figure out how to use. It’s on my front page for you to sign up, but I have no clue how to do my end. That is, actually send out a newsletter. But I will eventually, I swear.

As Samantha would say, I’m such an idiot.  But I have enough work to keep me busy today, which is great since my darling man has karate and won’t be home until late.

So I work on my high fantasy novel, saving the damsel in distress so she can become a thorn in the villain’s side. Except she saves herself, and he turns out to be lost not evil. Well, not compared to his sister!

I’m also busy on a steampunk romantic-mystery crossover for Eighth Ripple Press.  It’s such fun!  All swooning over chocolate brown eyes.  🙂

And in more frustration, the Corvid Moon page is stuck. I log in, hit build website, it wants me to buy the website. I already paid for it and have a receipt.  Gods, I hate calling help lines. They never seem to actually listen to me.

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